o m g, i havent been to my blog for more than 6 months now! hahahah poor poor blog, totally neglected by me! im still thinking of whether i should revive it! (: but i really kinda miss blogging!


i wish you weren't like that.

i so sick of your non-stop demands, bad moods, mood swings, bad attitude, your complains, your taking me for granted............. i tolerated as usual, always will. but im just so bloody sick of the weekly mental abuse you throw on me. vengeful and insatiable, thats what you are. it is as if you're possessed by this devil in you, this devil none other than yourself. out to seek revenge. on me, yes only on me.

its as if its a bloody routine every weekend. when you book out and pollute everything with your foulness always giving similar excuses when your realise your folly. army army army. the weekly upsetting me, hurting me until you're finally satisfied.when guilt falls upon you will you then apologise and beg for forgiveness to make things up. its like cutting me up and stitching me back up. i wonder how many more times can i tolerate that.

this song applies so well to how im feeling now. just wish i have the courage to say quit. i really hope you will save the situation. i dont want all the stupid empty promises you gave to me to try to be a better man. you're not changing. not a bit.

you're not sorry

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances
Everytime and all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I've figured you out
And you thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry
No, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you
If I didn't know
Could have loved you all my life
If you had'nt left me waiting
In the cold
And you've got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
'Cause it's worked each time before


You had me crawling for you honey
And it never would have gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade


im almost falling apart. freaking hate this, freaking hate that i love you. where did all the good guys in the world go?





Monday

"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."

i teared a little while reading this phrase. its day one without you baby. I miss you terribly much. i doubt i am anything without you. I love you silly amosey baby and i am never leaving you, never letting go. Regardless of what. Hold on tight to me alright?





oh goshhhhh i haven't been blogging AT ALLLLL.
im kinda sick today. i've got fever during the weekend.
I guess it because i didn't have any of my dearest baby!

Just recently celebrated jessie choong PTBF's birthday.
It was awesome!!!! All the dancing and screaming around!
We even got free money to cab back home from some lecherous ang mohs.
Dont worry, nothing happened! HAHAHA i'll post up pictures soon.
when i am not so lazyyyyy
I LOVE YOU JESSIE CHOONG!!!! I LOVE YOU MICHELLE TAY!
thou we didn't get to celebrate your birthday on the day itself but we will celebrate it soon alrighty? MUACKS!
but you guys are oldddd fartts! 19 years old alrrrr. thank god i am still 18! HAHAHA

Partyingggg is so funnnnnn. Why did i realise that earlier?


Nonetheless, i miss my dearest baby boy alot alot alot. i love you amos tan WJ! Hurry hurry book out and accompany me to many many places. How i wish you can driveeeee


Sometimes when i look at those Korean plastic beauties, i will feel a tinge of jealousy. Then i will console myself that they are simply fake beauties. Nonetheless, i can't help feeling if one could become so gorgeous through plastic surgery, why not do it too? Stupid thinking yes i know. In Korea, the most commonly done cosmetic surgery will be double eyelids and nose. Likewise, even the men in Korea will go under the knife just to look good. Haven't you realise that most of Asia's beautiful and handsome people are from Korea. And in the their drama serials, which i always watch, you just can't help falling in love with the male lead character. Because of this, i really have this impulse to want to stay in Korea. Yet when you come to think of it, if Koreans do not go under the knife, i bet i wouldn't even give them a second look. Or bother to watch their drama serial because i think throughout the whole show i just keep complaining about how ugly they are. If you look carefully at those Korean girls, you will realise that most of the really beautiful ones looks kind of alike. Big Barbie doll eyes, sharp little nose and petite little mouth. on top of that, they are really fair with long lush curly black hair falling down their back. kind of remind me of those Japanese anime characters that look too perfect to be true.


Thinking about it, if Koreans do not go plastic surgery, would they have raised so much interest around the world. sorry to say so, but i think nobody in the world would even bother to raise their heads to look at them. maybe ask some people from Europe and i doubt they will know where Korea is. but because of these plastic beauties, korea is rapidly becoming a country known for 'beautiful' people. As for me, if my husband looks good. i wouldn't care whether he went for plastic surgery because i dont think i can stand a long time of my life looking at someone ugly.


My baby for the time being. HA HA, i change eye candies really fast. if i am not wrong, my previous love was joo ji hoon. Im going to Korea this year, lets see if i can hook up with some Korean hot guy. preferably lee dong gun. Even thou he is 10 whole years older than me, just like how he was in the show sweet 18. but he is still in his late 20s. Hot stuff.


super mart in siam paragon. very very classy


toilets in siam paragon
toilet


siam paragon. i love youuuu




toilets. chic isn't it


traffic problem in bangkok
amazing thailand indeed. i love thailand
MBK!!!

i love tuk tuk utterly much. Its really fun riding on a tuk tuk. So thrilling and cooling. esp if the driver is driving at a very fast speed. best of all, tuk tuk cost an average of $2 for both mf and me. so we each pay around $1 only. During peak hour it will cost maybe double of that price. but its still dirt dirt dirt cheap compared to singapore's taxi prices.





MBK!
me camwhoring while i was walking in mbk
posing with my cute hot thai eyecandy

mbk
super duper yummy.
mk restaurant is really famous in thailand. sadly i didnt get to eat there.
movies
foodcourt in mbk. a must go. dirt cheap food. huge serving. everything is around $1-$3.

RED MANGO DESERT
the desert meifen was eating.
super duper good beef noodles in MBK. a definite must try. only $2. huge serving.
mbk
mbk
darling bestie
toilet camwhoring
our loots
our loots from chatukchap
plastic bags. hahahaha.
my pair of colourful shoes
clothes



chatukchap
foody foody
the sexy picture in the female toilet in bangkok

bestie love
hotel hotel

heart shaped egg
bangkok
my cute little rabbit!!!!
i love the little rabbit in white with lots of black spots. can you spot him. Cute? i wanted to smuggle him back to singapore but its not very possible ):
burnt.
cammy.
Sushi. free flow.
sun chairs that are super comfy.
FOOD FOOD FOOD. look at the number of plates of food we polished off.
me
meifen drinking
the man made lake.
living room
pool right outside our room. Awesome?

preparing to go for a swim
my comfy roomy
dressing area.
living room at night
bestfriends! preparing to go out shopping!
lobby of the hotel
huge Christmas tree
shopping places!
food food food





i haven't been blogging for a long long time people. i think i am getting too lazy to blog. been busy with chinese new year preparations and all. and i am gaining so much weight. i cant fit into some of my beloved clothes. so sad please. i need to shed off 15kg please just to get back in shape. i need to be just like my cousin who is of the same age as me but shes only 30 plus kg.

there are simply too many pics to upload, i have around 600 over and that doesn't include pics from meifen. i will be uploading more in my next post alright
love you ppl.