I like being alone recently. I really don't like to engage in conversations. Why so? I definitely have my reason, a very personal one in fact. I don't want to say, neither do i want to share. But there is definitely a reason. Initially i thought i was actually having mood swings, but i realised, nope i am not. It is not me, not me, not me, not me, not me, it is simply not me.

Whatever whatever. Life WAS never perfect,almost actually, but now its nowhere near. Waiting for the holidays,impatient, then it will make everything better again. (: A beautiful time. A time i can spend catching up on lost times with my dearest friends and of course, my dear baby. Ah, thinking about this makes me smile. As for now, i shall bear with it for a while, a teeny little while more.


I tell myself, it is going to be soon.

Maybe, it will make everything better. (:

And maybe one day, i can remove my mask. Meifen meifen, come save me.


I miss joey BFF and Chris bestie. Not to mention, meifen the pig and brendadadada. The list is endless. Most importantly, baby darling dearest.

Looking forward forward forward, never back rachel.