I realised i have been missing church much too often. Not really that it was intentional. The many many obligations and responsibilities are keeping me away from church. Or is it just me? I don't know. Definitely many people think that i am back sliding, maybe i am. And i honestly honestly do want to go church. I hope i can find my way back again. Pray pray and be strong. I am a sinner, a big big sinner. Yet all in all, i know i will be forgiven. I just hope for one more chance, one more chance again and again. A never ending list of more chances God will faithfully give.

I remember all the good times we had when we were young. All the worship sessions where nobody actually sang as we found singing really embarrassing. But deep down, i know we were practically shouting out with joy. I love/loved church.
I remember those times with the girls and the guys. We were naive, innocent and young. Protected under the wings of our parents. Oblivious to the dark cloud of sin, guilt, temptation and many more slowly engulfing us.
But the older i get, the more i see. People aren't what they are deep down. Superficial things are what matters to them. Materialism is the 'new god'. This is what makes going to church less and less appealing.

But all is not lost. I still have my beloved bunch of friends and of course my dearest. I know they are supportive and loving. So all is not lost. I love you guys. And the rising group of shao er people are remarkably mature. I believe they will do a good job of guiding all the young ones in 1520 when we leave. I need to do my part for the church, i will try. This i promise. Although i might have to give church a miss the end of this month due to work obligations. Booooooooo. Sorry people.

Went to the hospital today. Results are fine. Which is good.

Itab exam tomorrow. My worst subject. God help me please.

I love baby and i miss him alot. Can't wait to see him again and bury my face in his safe warm chest. When i am with him, i have eyes for noone. Even when i comment on some looker, it is usually done with the intention to make him jealous.

You are all i want and all i need. Remember the love quiz i did for us?

Perfect Catch

Your boyfriend/girlfriend should be counting their lucky stars as they have found a Perfect Catch in you. You're every person's dream boyfriend/girlfriend, understanding, loving, sensitive and self sacrificing. Anyone in a relationship with you should grab hold hard to you as you're just too perfect! However, do be careful to give your love to someone who deserves it or he or she will break your heart as you're simply too nice.

you are my perfect prince in shining white armour. There were time when i strayed and broke your heart. However, you never did let me go and i am so thankful to you for that. I love you i love you i love you all my heart. Sometimes, i just wanted to pick a fight with you. To piss you off so that i can take the opportunity to vent my anger on you. i love you nosie. With all my nose.