i wish you weren't like that.

i so sick of your non-stop demands, bad moods, mood swings, bad attitude, your complains, your taking me for granted............. i tolerated as usual, always will. but im just so bloody sick of the weekly mental abuse you throw on me. vengeful and insatiable, thats what you are. it is as if you're possessed by this devil in you, this devil none other than yourself. out to seek revenge. on me, yes only on me.

its as if its a bloody routine every weekend. when you book out and pollute everything with your foulness always giving similar excuses when your realise your folly. army army army. the weekly upsetting me, hurting me until you're finally satisfied.when guilt falls upon you will you then apologise and beg for forgiveness to make things up. its like cutting me up and stitching me back up. i wonder how many more times can i tolerate that.

this song applies so well to how im feeling now. just wish i have the courage to say quit. i really hope you will save the situation. i dont want all the stupid empty promises you gave to me to try to be a better man. you're not changing. not a bit.

you're not sorry

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances
Everytime and all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I've figured you out
And you thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry
No, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you
If I didn't know
Could have loved you all my life
If you had'nt left me waiting
In the cold
And you've got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
'Cause it's worked each time before


You had me crawling for you honey
And it never would have gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade


im almost falling apart. freaking hate this, freaking hate that i love you. where did all the good guys in the world go?