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long time

2010-07-03T23:59:00.002+08:00

o m g, i havent been to my blog for more than 6 months now! hahahah poor poor blog, totally neglected by me! im still thinking of whether i should revive it! (: but i really kinda miss blogging!

2009-08-10T01:17:00.004+08:00

i wish you weren't like that.

i so sick of your non-stop demands, bad moods, mood swings, bad attitude, your complains, your taking me for granted............. i tolerated as usual, always will. but im just so bloody sick of the weekly mental abuse you throw on me. vengeful and insatiable, thats what you are. it is as if you're possessed by this devil in you, this devil none other than yourself. out to seek revenge. on me, yes only on me.

its as if its a bloody routine every weekend. when you book out and pollute everything with your foulness always giving similar excuses when your realise your folly. army army army. the weekly upsetting me, hurting me until you're finally satisfied.when guilt falls upon you will you then apologise and beg for forgiveness to make things up. its like cutting me up and stitching me back up. i wonder how many more times can i tolerate that.

this song applies so well to how im feeling now. just wish i have the courage to say quit. i really hope you will save the situation. i dont want all the stupid empty promises you gave to me to try to be a better man. you're not changing. not a bit.

you're not sorry

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances
Everytime and all you do is let me down
And it's taken me this long
Baby but I've figured you out
And you thinking we'll be fine again
But not this time around

You don't have to call anymore
I won't pick up the phone
This is the last straw
Don't want to hurt anymore
And you can tell me that you're sorry
But I don't believe you baby
Like I did before
You're not sorry
No, no, no, no

Looking so innocent
I might believe you
If I didn't know
Could have loved you all my life
If you had'nt left me waiting
In the cold
And you've got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now you're asking me to listen
'Cause it's worked each time before

You had me crawling for you honey
And it never would have gone away, no
You used to shine so bright
But I watched all of it fade

im almost falling apart. freaking hate this, freaking hate that i love you. where did all the good guys in the world go?

2009-05-25T23:02:00.003+08:00

Monday

"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies."

i teared a little while reading this phrase. its day one without you baby. I miss you terribly much. i doubt i am anything without you. I love you silly amosey baby and i am never leaving you, never letting go. Regardless of what. Hold on tight to me alright?

Hello peeps. im suffering from monday bluessssss today. but i did go for lecture in the morning!!! are you proud of me? Heyyyyy, you have to be alright? hey hey no dont laugh or shake your head. i was just 15 minutes late. ): did my project during the 3 hours break. The weather is so screwed up!! it was so damn hot in the afternoon that i couldn't help dozing off.

On the way home, i met gerald! hahahahah, we took the same bus. and while we were on the bus we decided to pay a visit to brenda! so we took the bus all the way to river valley. Sat at ice cream gallery and eat a waffle with ice cream. it was awesome. Next we had char kway teow at zion road! YUMMMMY! my favourite! after that. ICE CREAM AGAIN. At island creamery and macs! i had yummy oreo mcflurry. i better watch my weight. im eating FARRRR TOOO MUCH. my stomach juts out. my baby keep teasing me and poking me.

I miss the scent of you baby. lots lots lotsssss. i can still remember how fantastic you smell. i love sniffing you. then you'll disturb me saying that im behaving like a little dog.you look so funny in this pic. hAHAHAHAHAH. but i love it. my baby superman! MUACKS! toodles people.

2009-05-19T00:41:00.003+08:00

oh goshhhhh i haven't been blogging AT ALLLLL.
im kinda sick today. i've got fever during the weekend.
I guess it because i didn't have any of my dearest baby!

Just recently celebrated jessie choong PTBF's birthday.
It was awesome!!!! All the dancing and screaming around!
We even got free money to cab back home from some lecherous ang mohs.
Dont worry, nothing happened! HAHAHA i'll post up pictures soon.
when i am not so lazyyyyy
I LOVE YOU JESSIE CHOONG!!!! I LOVE YOU MICHELLE TAY!
thou we didn't get to celebrate your birthday on the day itself but we will celebrate it soon alrighty? MUACKS!
but you guys are oldddd fartts! 19 years old alrrrr. thank god i am still 18! HAHAHA

Partyingggg is so funnnnnn. Why did i realise that earlier?

Nonetheless, i miss my dearest baby boy alot alot alot. i love you amos tan WJ! Hurry hurry book out and accompany me to many many places. How i wish you can driveeeee

2009-02-05T14:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes when i look at those Korean plastic beauties, i will feel a tinge of jealousy. Then i will console myself that they are simply fake beauties. Nonetheless, i can't help feeling if one could become so gorgeous through plastic surgery, why not do it too? Stupid thinking yes i know. In Korea, the most commonly done cosmetic surgery will be double eyelids and nose. Likewise, even the men in Korea will go under the knife just to look good. Haven't you realise that most of Asia's beautiful and handsome people are from Korea. And in the their drama serials, which i always watch, you just can't help falling in love with the male lead character. Because of this, i really have this impulse to want to stay in Korea. Yet when you come to think of it, if Koreans do not go under the knife, i bet i wouldn't even give them a second look. Or bother to watch their drama serial because i think throughout the whole show i just keep complaining about how ugly they are. If you look carefully at those Korean girls, you will realise that most of the really beautiful ones looks kind of alike. Big Barbie doll eyes, sharp little nose and petite little mouth. on top of that, they are really fair with long lush curly black hair falling down their back. kind of remind me of those Japanese anime characters that look too perfect to be true.

Thinking about it, if Koreans do not go plastic surgery, would they have raised so much interest around the world. sorry to say so, but i think nobody in the world would even bother to raise their heads to look at them. maybe ask some people from Europe and i doubt they will know where Korea is. but because of these plastic beauties, korea is rapidly becoming a country known for 'beautiful' people. As for me, if my husband looks good. i wouldn't care whether he went for plastic surgery because i dont think i can stand a long time of my life looking at someone ugly.

My baby for the time being. HA HA, i change eye candies really fast. if i am not wrong, my previous love was joo ji hoon. Im going to Korea this year, lets see if i can hook up with some Korean hot guy. preferably lee dong gun. Even thou he is 10 whole years older than me, just like how he was in the show sweet 18. but he is still in his late 20s. Hot stuff.

2009-01-30T22:36:00.005+08:00

super mart in siam paragon. very very classy

toilets in siam paragon
toilet

siam paragon. i love youuuu

toilets. chic isn't it

traffic problem in bangkok
amazing thailand indeed. i love thailand
MBK!!!

i love tuk tuk utterly much. Its really fun riding on a tuk tuk. So thrilling and cooling. esp if the driver is driving at a very fast speed. best of all, tuk tuk cost an average of $2 for both mf and me. so we each pay around $1 only. During peak hour it will cost maybe double of that price. but its still dirt dirt dirt cheap compared to singapore's taxi prices.

MBK!
me camwhoring while i was walking in mbk
posing with my cute hot thai eyecandy

mbk
super duper yummy.
mk restaurant is really famous in thailand. sadly i didnt get to eat there.
movies
foodcourt in mbk. a must go. dirt cheap food. huge serving. everything is around $1-$3.

RED MANGO DESERT
the desert meifen was eating.
super duper good beef noodles in MBK. a definite must try. only $2. huge serving.
mbk
mbk
darling bestie
toilet camwhoring
our loots
our loots from chatukchap
plastic bags. hahahaha.
my pair of colourful shoes
clothes

chatukchap
foody foody
the sexy picture in the female toilet in bangkok

bestie love
hotel hotel

heart shaped egg
bangkok
my cute little rabbit!!!!
i love the little rabbit in white with lots of black spots. can you spot him. Cute? i wanted to smuggle him back to singapore but its not very possible ):
burnt.
cammy.
Sushi. free flow.
sun chairs that are super comfy.
FOOD FOOD FOOD. look at the number of plates of food we polished off.
me
meifen drinking
the man made lake.
living room
pool right outside our room. Awesome?

preparing to go for a swim
my comfy roomy
dressing area.
living room at night
bestfriends! preparing to go out shopping!
lobby of the hotel
huge Christmas tree
shopping places!
food food food

i haven't been blogging for a long long time people. i think i am getting too lazy to blog. been busy with chinese new year preparations and all. and i am gaining so much weight. i cant fit into some of my beloved clothes. so sad please. i need to shed off 15kg please just to get back in shape. i need to be just like my cousin who is of the same age as me but shes only 30 plus kg.

there are simply too many pics to upload, i have around 600 over and that doesn't include pics from meifen. i will be uploading more in my next post alright
love you ppl.

2009-01-17T01:09:00.002+08:00

i hate 2009.

my relationship with friends and family isn't good.

2009-01-09T00:39:00.003+08:00

Its been a sad 18th birthday for me. (super close friends should know why) i thought it would have been different. nah, i think its worse. it hadn't been a good 2008. And definitely not a good start to 2009. ):

2008-12-27T01:21:00.003+08:00

its been a lonely birthday this year :( i feel pretty upset over everything.

my one birthday wish is for everything to be alright again. but i think Santa died.

my birthdays have never been happy ever since i was 15. sorry

2008-12-07T18:39:00.000+08:00

One more week left to enjoy and play before life starts getting all busy.

Thank you people for helping me celebrate my birthday! hahaha though it isn't anytime near but i still appreciate it. love you guys/girls. <3

ok i am lazy to blog. shall post up pictures soon.

btw i am cutting my hair tomorrow. should i cut it short?

2008-11-21T11:55:00.003+08:00

if i were a boy, Beyonce. This song is awesome.

I am currently into week 6 of school. And today is friday so bye bye to week 6 and hello to week 7. MST is in week 8 and i haven't started my revision. i am so dead. I haven't been doing tutorials since the start of school. I dont know what is wrong with me. I am such a lazy bum. damn. Fom presentation is this coming monday and my group isnt done with anything. ): and and the worse thing is baby is enjoying himself without me. rawrrrrrrr. I miss my boyfriend. i miss my life. i miss meifen. talking about meifen, everything still feels so surreal. i guess i will have to get use to it. i still love you babe. no worries.

video called and webcam-ed with BFF dada yesterday night. however there was some prob with her mike so i ended up having a one sided conversation with her. it was quite dumb but i haven't seen her for yearszxzszdsdzsdz. MISS HER LOADS. hahahha.

I look horrible in home wear. Greasy flat hair, oily complexion. Small puny eyes and big fat nose. HAHAHAH, look at dada's vintage hairstyle. hawttttttttttt.

toodles peeps.

2008-11-13T13:16:00.004+08:00

Today is such a rainy and gloomy day. It was supposed to be a happy day. B's A level is finally over. We're supposed to go out and celebrate but but but but but i've got to stay back for project. Hmm, i guess going out will have to wait. After all i sort of didn't really do that much for the project. With such a slacker attitude, how am i going to do well for MST and achieve a GPA of at least 3.5? I hate school. I dont want to think about it. Lectures are a horror and tutorials are worse.

I am such a lonely soul. None of my secondary school friends are in SP. At least not those that i am close to. I miss being in the familiar company of my good friends. Honestly, i sincerely wish i am still in secondary school. I miss meifen, jessie and michelle. I HATE SP! I miss eating in comfort of my bestfriends. Those days with Ham and cheese sandwich. And meifen and my favourite chinese mixed rice with tons of sauce. hmmm, i miss secondary school food loads loads loads.

I just love going out with my old friends. its true, you find your bestfriends in secondary school.

Having itab lessons now. I hate itab lessons. I can't catch up with the lesson and i got like a C for it last term. So hungry and hungry now.
I am in such a bad black mood. even my feet is BLACK.

So toodles people.

2008-11-02T00:16:00.003+08:00

O M G. Wu zun is the hottest guy on earth seriously. I adore him!!! Love him love him love him.

I think i should be cheena piang. Anyway whats so bad about speaking more chinese. we should embrace our own culture. then maybe i can see wuzun. o m g. so going to drool. Hahahahaha.

anyway other than my thailand trip. i am planning for 2 other trips next year. i am planning to go taiwan for one month and 1 or 2 weeks in hongkong. so excited. totally cool. So excited.
my parents are thinking of migrating to hongkong or taiwan for retirement. so happy. next time i can go and visit them. i love travelling. shall blog more tomorrow. toodles.

2008-10-30T22:26:00.002+08:00

So i am running away.

Run away from everything, everyone. Fly fly fly, off i go. So toodles people.

2008-10-22T17:11:00.007+08:00

America's next top model cycle 11

Hannah the bitch.

Oh yes. I am currently at America's next top model cycle 11 and i totally adore this show. Simply can't get enough of their bitchiness. I am so envious of all the pretty pretty pictures they have the chance to take. cycle 11 is full of tasty bits of gossips and very very interesting people.

By the way, the girl above is one of the girls from cycle 11 whom i dislike. She is so NOT pretty and adding onto that, she is a total cry baby. Yes, a cry baby. She cries over the slightest things. I just can't tolerate girls who are so emotionally weak. Women should be independent creatures. Whether financially or emotionally. We may not be as strong as men, but i believe we can do it if we aim to achieve.
Hi people. Meet Isis the transsexual. I think she is very brave to face up and admit to everyone that she is different. Sometimes, i feel sad for her because she faces discrimination from other girls. When the girls were asked to be the extras in her photo shoot, they kept making rude comments to her to try to distract her. But that did not affect her. YOU GO GIRL! YOU'RE HOT HOT HOT.

I am still not in the mood for studying. Mm, totally love watching shows. And I've been skipping lessons and school. Which is of course very unlike me! ( :

Meifen came to school today and accompanied me for Econs lecture. Felt almost like secondary school. Where we would go everywhere together, do everything together, eat the same food together and we even carried the same PINK bag. OMG, pink is so unlike me. Everyone called us twin of something. Many people commented that we look alike. Which is so totally weird? I dont feel so at least, neither does she. Felicia calls us the chop stick sisters. And said we stick together like glue. Which is quite true. Hahaha.

I've just found a new place to listen to songs. And that is *drum roll............* Xinqi's friendster. well, she shares the same appreciate for the same type of music as me. Awesome huh.

I look so ghostly. How i wish i have a face that is erasable. Everyday i will draw on a new nose, new mouth and new eyes. HA, life will never be boring. i will have an outfit to suit a face and a face to suit an outfit. but i will probably be too lazy and step out of the house faceless. Well, that would give people a good scare huh. Perfect 'make up' for Halloween. Hahahah, speaking of Halloween, its coming soon so have a good Halloween month dear bitches. You know i adore you, xoxo.

Toodles big boobies and small boobies. I love you both.

2008-10-21T16:14:00.002+08:00

Just like any other simple day except that i didn't attend school today.

Awesome:

Today i was out eating at some delicious chicken rice stall. After placing my order, i decided to order an extra serving of rice. And i did, my friends would probably say its due to my pig like nature. And when i gave my $5 note to pay for my food, i expected the chicken rice man to give me $2.50 change. As we all know, due to global warming and many many other reasons, the demand for rice far exceeds the supply of rice. so naturally, rice is more expensive compared to a long long time ago or should i say last year? Back to the point, the chicken rice man did not return me the change i expected. Instead he gave me $2.90 change back. What a pleasant surprise! an additional bowl of rice cost only 10cents. well, we probably wouldn't be able to find such prices now. And to begin with, the chicken rice itself cost a mere $2. Which i find is already a real steal. And their chicken rice is seriously seriously seriously yummy. I would say, on par with boon tong kee. But of course, boon tong kee is much much more expensive. well, which one would you say has a better deal? you choose.

Toodles PS-s.

2008-10-18T21:25:00.005+08:00

Foodie in the plane. HA, i bet you all are super jealous of my desert. i ate it like half an hour after it was served because its rock hard. And i am not joking. my spoon almost broke.
SEE the temperature outside. SO COLDDDDDD.

My awesome hotel room which is really nice

SUPER MESSY BED. clothes from the first day, ONLY.

Very unique sundae. the jelly tasted like medicine. didn't like it. yummy desert nonetheless

I adore you bitch. like totally.

HAHAHAHAH. camwhoring is our favourite hobby dont cha agree?

Very nice sky view from the plane. it was -70 degrees outside btw. it was kind of funny as one side of my body was cold while the other side was comfortably warm. hahahhaah.

My messy messy room on the fifth day. hahahhaha.

My favourite song of the month.

Thunder.

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
And bring on the thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

Awesome isn't it. I do love this song so so so much. just like a drug addict.

tried talking to stupid joey/bb online, and they ignored me. i feel us drifting apart. i guess sometimes, we all need some space to breathe and be away from one another. After all, absence makes the heart grow fonder. Hopefully our heart will grow fonder. i still love you, i do.

xoxo, i know you all love me.

2008-10-17T22:18:00.005+08:00

Since i am free now i shall blog. Everyone has been nagging at me to do so but i am just too damn lazy. One week of school went by, just like that. We've got new teachers for our new modules. Some are pretty awesome and some are just average i should say. But i do do do miss mrs szeto. She's an awesome MOB teacher. Enough of school and back to me. HA. i can see my friends laughing at me. They will go' narcissistic bimbo' but but hey, this is my blog. remember my blog address, it is itsallaboutrachel.blogspot.com. It is not itsallaboutschool.blogspot.com Alright alright. Enough of all these crap. what a lame attempt to be lame -.- hahahha.

Back to serious business. I haven't seen bb for so long. ): life is a great big boring ball. that just keeps increasing in size.

anyway anyway,

sometimes when i see him, he still takes my breath away. i dont know what is wrong with me. i get nervous around him, but its getting better. i like brainie boys. the smarter the better. well, looks doesn't really matter to me. i am more attracted to the brainie ones than the smart stupid ones. Weird right? i know. but im just like that. I may look like i go for looks but thats not true. But of course, if he has it all thats indeed a bonus isn't it? i love brains brains brains. i will probably feel happier if my boyfriend tells me,' i got an A for maths today' compared to ' the girls in my school are going crazy over me. i am just so good looking'
my hotel room. As you can see, i think i will not make a good wife. the house will probably be looking like a dump in no time.

okok i am damn tired. byebye people. love love love you people, dear eyecandy and of course most specially my dear baby,

a little random post

2008-10-17T09:43:00.003+08:00

I think i am going to give up blogging. but maybe not.

2008-09-28T00:09:00.003+08:00

one might one day, for no apparent reason have a shocking revelation that the person he is with might not be the one he fancies after all. basking in the wonderful light of love can indeed blind a person. but after the light slowly fades away, the eyes will become clearer. and he will look. and he will see. the flaws in her. then he will think ' she is not that good looking after all' Physical appearances start to matter more, slowly more and more and more. thoughts will appear, floating around in his head ' what fat thighs she has' or 'what small boobs she has' what happens next? the wonderful light of love will slowly dim itself to non-existence or be push to the background until it all fades away.

Then everything will be like a terrible dream to him. Tied down to the person he does not love. he wants everything to end. he pushes her away, she comes back for more. what becomes of her? a poor empty shell to satisfy all of his wants and needs( physical ). well, naive or should i say stupid, she is oblivious to everything. pure dumbness. I pity her, not.

say i am evil, i dont care. but im standing at the side of the guy. she is so not the one for him.

2008-09-18T10:45:00.002+08:00

Okay. I am sure all the business students have received their results. For me, i dare say i am not satisfied with mine. However, I am quite happy at the same time. Why so? Well, apparently for this sem, our GPA is only calculated by all our half sem courses. Itab, IDEAS, Mob and EC. I still remember how terribly i did for MOB. Was probably last 2nd or 3rd student in the whole class. I think i got like 5/25 for the first test. Can't really remember that well now. Well, i am proud to say i got a BBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBBB for mob this time. Guess my last paper really pulled my grades up. YAY! As for IDEAS. I expected to do much much better. EC totally killed me. I guess it was the last and most important paper that did the job. Seriously. It was horrible. And and and and lastly ITAB!!!!!!!! I fail my first itab paper. Seriously i am not IT savvy. But but this time i managed to get a C+!!!!!!! YAY! A C+! with a +( plus plus plus) i know i know, when people read this they are going to go 'C is not big deal'. FOR ME IT IS!!!!!! I got an F for the first paper. So shut up!! In total, i wouldn't say my GPA was fantastic. But i could have gotten worse results. I didn't exactly work that hard. Which explains my results for my first test. But i did study harder for the last exam. And it did pay off.

Let see, if i didn't study my results will probably be

MOB- F
ITAB- F
IDEA- Unchangable
EC- Unchangable

Leading probably to - GPA -------------------- less than 2 i think. or maybe a low 2?

what if what if they say, you are not allowed to remain in this course!!!!

Just kidding. Anyway, they say it is really hard to pull up your GPA but it is very easy for your GPA to fall.

My next aim wil be GPA of 3.9!! YES YES YES! i am going to study harder and harder and harder. This GPA may not be as good as i expected. But lets be optimistic and stop complaining. I should have and could have done worse.

Anyway congratulations to qiaos! you did well this time. Uh huh uh huh. i am so jealous. I want to do better and better and better. Love love.

To my beloved awesome fivesome. i know we did do as well as we all expected except for qiaos. So all of us wil work harder alright. LOVE LOVE!

2008-09-01T17:57:00.002+08:00

i hate IT shows. Basically its been hell of a 4 days for me. Sleeping late and waking up early and missing out so much on church. The only good thing about the IT show is probably the nice staffs and the good food. Other than that, its a crappy place to work in. Some customers are nice and polite while others are plain mean and stingy. Why i chose to work at this IT show, well i was lured by the good salary. I worked during the last IT show and earned $600. Its alot considering i worked only for 4 days. When i was working in DFS during january this year, my pay was only $800 for AN ENTIRE MONTH. 6 days a week. Now you know! Well, this IT show i sold around 43 lappy. Much more than my other IT show.

The mean customers seriously exceed the nice ones 90-10. Disgusting aren't they. or maybe its just me, i felt so horrible and hateful throughout the whole IT show. I hate serving cheena(zhong guo) customers and indian customers. Why? Well, cheena customers are smelly and when they speak to me i was so so so so so worried that their saliva will fly into my face. DISGUSTING. Same applies for the indian customers. On top of that, we have language barrier. They will ask me about the specifications of the lappy in chinese. HOW IN THE HELL WILL I KNOW WHAT ARE THE PARTS CALLED IN CHINESE PLEASE? OH OH, one of their favourite question is, what is Toshiba called in chinese. -.- As for indians, i find it so hard to understand their accent. They have this slang when they speak. And are so greedy. They expect so many free gifts when they are purchasing the cheapest laptop.

Disgusting disgusting disgusting! My legs are on the verge of breaking( still are) and my patience stretched.

I miss my friends. i hate life. i hate work. now, i understand my parents when they say, working life is not as easy as we think.

2008-08-13T20:25:00.002+08:00

We are so close yet so far. i love you so much that it aches but you just have to be so mean.

2008-08-12T21:06:00.003+08:00

I realised i have been missing church much too often. Not really that it was intentional. The many many obligations and responsibilities are keeping me away from church. Or is it just me? I don't know. Definitely many people think that i am back sliding, maybe i am. And i honestly honestly do want to go church. I hope i can find my way back again. Pray pray and be strong. I am a sinner, a big big sinner. Yet all in all, i know i will be forgiven. I just hope for one more chance, one more chance again and again. A never ending list of more chances God will faithfully give.

I remember all the good times we had when we were young. All the worship sessions where nobody actually sang as we found singing really embarrassing. But deep down, i know we were practically shouting out with joy. I love/loved church.
I remember those times with the girls and the guys. We were naive, innocent and young. Protected under the wings of our parents. Oblivious to the dark cloud of sin, guilt, temptation and many more slowly engulfing us.
But the older i get, the more i see. People aren't what they are deep down. Superficial things are what matters to them. Materialism is the 'new god'. This is what makes going to church less and less appealing.

But all is not lost. I still have my beloved bunch of friends and of course my dearest. I know they are supportive and loving. So all is not lost. I love you guys. And the rising group of shao er people are remarkably mature. I believe they will do a good job of guiding all the young ones in 1520 when we leave. I need to do my part for the church, i will try. This i promise. Although i might have to give church a miss the end of this month due to work obligations. Booooooooo. Sorry people.

Went to the hospital today. Results are fine. Which is good.

Itab exam tomorrow. My worst subject. God help me please.

I love baby and i miss him alot. Can't wait to see him again and bury my face in his safe warm chest. When i am with him, i have eyes for noone. Even when i comment on some looker, it is usually done with the intention to make him jealous.

You are all i want and all i need. Remember the love quiz i did for us?

Perfect Catch

Your boyfriend/girlfriend should be counting their lucky stars as they have found a Perfect Catch in you. You're every person's dream boyfriend/girlfriend, understanding, loving, sensitive and self sacrificing. Anyone in a relationship with you should grab hold hard to you as you're just too perfect! However, do be careful to give your love to someone who deserves it or he or she will break your heart as you're simply too nice.

you are my perfect prince in shining white armour. There were time when i strayed and broke your heart. However, you never did let me go and i am so thankful to you for that. I love you i love you i love you all my heart. Sometimes, i just wanted to pick a fight with you. To piss you off so that i can take the opportunity to vent my anger on you. i love you nosie. With all my nose.

2008-08-11T18:31:00.003+08:00

I watched the Dark Knight TODAY!!! Yes, i know. Im really late but but but as they say, better late than never right? (: It was super duper duper good. I love BATMAN!I think it is so much better tha Spiderman. Like seriously. Thinking about it. spiderman is a little too boring. It concentrates too much on love, gentle violent scenes............ This is what happens when you watch the dark knight. You do not like other super heroes film anymore. Maybe that applies only for me. I love the whole plot of the DK, how the scenes are so super exciting that it makes you wanna jump out of your seats. I love i love i love i love Christian Bale. HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT!

Saturday and sunday.

I worked at harvey norman fair in expo with wenbin, alex, gary and huiming. Let me tell you, our pay is pathetic. It is a mere $50 a day. Worse still, with shared commission. So pathetic. And during the last day, they expected up to work OT. No thanks seriously.

okok. i got to go. toodles children

2008-08-08T23:53:00.004+08:00

This is like my 3rd post of the day. i don't know why i am blogging so much today. Guess i need a place where i can rant on and on about everything. And i mean EVERYTHING.

MOB is finally over. i think i am going to do just fine. but but but i have a few careless mistakes! damn it. I could have, could have gotten them right. DAMN IT!

I want my baby my baby my baby my baby!

Some guy loving

I want to meet joe BFF soon! We need to talk talk talk talk talk. Feel so happy being back in the comforting familiar presence of my best of best friends.
LOVE YA JOE BFF the dumb dumb.
Sometimes, you make me so happy. Sometimes, so frustrated. Sometimes, so angry. Sometimes, so sad. We didn't know we will become best of friends didn't we? You were doubtful of me, and i was skeptical of you. But we are best friend now aren't we? We are bestfriends forever.

LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!

Of course not forgetting chris. He is like the most fantastic guy ever. Ever so welcoming. Although you look really 'dao' ( proud ) but you are really not. Totally not not not. You dont chat as much with me as joe does but i know you are a fantastic fantastic fantastic guy. I should think of a term for you. Bestie chris sounds quite cute. HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I remember all the things you have done for me! YOU ARE INDEED THE BEST! ( JOE is gonna protest ) oh ya, please remember to take a picture with me. (:

LOVE YOU LOVE YOU LOVE YOU!

my love for baby is fhgjrhgtyqhaksofmernsdngldofng. you can't find any word to measure it or describe it.

some girl loving post shall be posted tomorrow or somewhere in the near future. the list is endlessssssssss. I guess, i am just tooo loved. and i love.

2008-08-08T15:20:00.003+08:00

I like being alone recently. I really don't like to engage in conversations. Why so? I definitely have my reason, a very personal one in fact. I don't want to say, neither do i want to share. But there is definitely a reason. Initially i thought i was actually having mood swings, but i realised, nope i am not. It is not me, not me, not me, not me, not me, it is simply not me.

Whatever whatever. Life WAS never perfect,almost actually, but now its nowhere near. Waiting for the holidays,impatient, then it will make everything better again. (: A beautiful time. A time i can spend catching up on lost times with my dearest friends and of course, my dear baby. Ah, thinking about this makes me smile. As for now, i shall bear with it for a while, a teeny little while more.

I tell myself, it is going to be soon.

Maybe, it will make everything better. (:

And maybe one day, i can remove my mask. Meifen meifen, come save me.

I miss joey BFF and Chris bestie. Not to mention, meifen the pig and brendadadada. The list is endless. Most importantly, baby darling dearest.

Looking forward forward forward, never back rachel.

Ice cream ice cream i love ice cream. As unhappy as i am now, i still LOVE. I still do.

2008-08-08T10:36:00.003+08:00

My dear meifen, YES I AM TOTALLY CRAZY ABOUT BANGKOK.

Because i am so excited to go Thailand with all my friends esp with MEIFEN the pig. We can finally be together again. There were/are so many times in my life that i wish we were/are still in the same school, to do all the crazy things together, to gossip, to eat, to skip school, to .....................
There are so many things to do together.

When we go to thailand together, the guys can be our bodyguard. They can shop for alcohol and . Or do what they are best at doing, eating. And we can go shop shop shop shop shop till we drop. See, isn't that fun? We can so go crazy, eat like kings, shop like queens, play like lunatics...... So many crazy things to do together. (: so stop spending $$$ now. You should start saving. After all, you are not working my dear.

BESTFRIEND, REMEMBER DONT BE A BITCH OK. MUST BE NICE TO EVERYONEEEEEE.

Just wanna let you know:
I still love you. Even though sometimes you can be such a bitch to everyone else and i mean EVERYONE.
I still miss you. Even though sometimes, i hang out with other friends.
I still need you, simply because you are my bestfriend.
I still want you, because we have been bestfriends for so long.

But sometimes i just want to murder you, because you are such a bitch bitch bitch witch.

But thats alright. Just remember not to be one during the trip or even starting from now alright?

I love you like shitass loads. MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS MUACKS!

I know no shit about MOB, dead dead dead dead dead.

2008-08-06T17:36:00.004+08:00

It is just one more mark to a B. That is just all i want. But i seriously doubt i will get it.

Mundane day once again. I am still not feeling too good. I feel so angry, annoyed and irritated recently. Probably, i am having mood swings. my goodness. Not too good isn't it. The only thing to look forward currently in my life is only the THAILAND trip. Vacation therapy.

I love i love i love i love. I love baby alot. (: This trip is organised by me for all my closest friend. Love you guys and greatly appreciate what you all have done for me. <3
CRYSTAL GRILL ON 82^ND FLOOR - Grilled & Seafood Buffet Restaurant in baiyoke sky

The greatest & highest grilled & seafood buffet with a long array of superb cuisine from special selection of local and imported meat and ingredients with unlimited fresh seafood, easy & cozy atmosphere with panoramic night view of the prestigious Bangkok through the full length of 5-meter glass panes.

CRYSTAL GRILL is combined with private atmosphere and international service with the introductory price is only at Bht.620.- net per person, inclusive of entrance fee to view the beauty of the prestigious Bangkok at the Observation Deck on 77^th floor & Revolving View Point on 84^th floor.

(Copied from their web site)

Dinner starts at 5.30pm to 2 am. With free flow of alcoholic drinks to go with your seafood or grilled meat.

JEALOUS? Bet you are. Hahahahaha. okok. Time to go and study. toodles children.

2008-08-05T15:09:00.002+08:00

I am sick.

As usual, today is a mundane day. Maybe just for me because i am down with the flu.
I hate falling sick. Just like how i fell sick when i was in Thailand. However, despite my sickness, i did enjoy myself tremendously. Except for the few times where i couldn't eat some of my favourite food and had to sit in torture watching Brenda gobble them down. The whole time salivating all over myself.

Jessie asked me' why do i like Thailand so much' ( apparently that shows that that "SUA-GU" has never been to Thailand ) I love it because of the cheap clothes, friendly people, delicious and cheap mouth watering delicacies.......... i shan't go on as the list is endless. If you go there, you will probably understand how i feel. I will just sum up in a word on how i felt in Thailand ' Invincible'

$$$$ is almost everything. Not exactly, but true. That was why i told BFF to bring more money. We will be going to the highest building in bangkok to eat their international buffet on the 70++ floor. Scary but definitely a total new experience. If you would like to eat in the restaurant of the highest building in Singapore, all i can is that IT WILL COST YOU A BOMB. I guess it will be expensive in Thailand's standard but it will be cheaper than in Singapore right? Around S$30 to S$50. I think we will choose either Bangkok Sky Restaurant on76th & 78th floors or Crystal Grill on 82nd floor. I shall take lots of splendid photos for you all to see alright?

i am hungry just thinking about the food! oh my.

i am off to bed. Got to study mob. -.- LOVE YA ALL. toodles.

2008-08-03T18:59:00.005+08:00

Oh my gosh. i just did the craziest thing on earth.
I organised a vacation in like 1 day. A vacation for one week in thailand!

Yesterday, i went to Natas fair with only the intention of checking out air ticket prices and hotel rates.

In the end, everyone was in a huge fluster as we all rushed to the POSB to deposit money into mine and meifen's saving accounts. Meifen for her to book our air tickets online and for me to book our hotel.

And there, you have it.

A trip from Singapore to Thailand. Hahahahahaha. I swear it was crazy. Tons of phone calls to each other confirming dates, prices and more. I think it is so going to be fun. The hotel we are staying in is so chic.

There, my hotel room. Ok, it looks kind of small but it is super nice. Situated right in the middle of bangkok's shopping district, Pratunam. Love it love it. So excited. As you all know, i went to thailand like probably 3 months ago or so. I absolutely can't get enough of Thailand.

All the cheap clothes. Do you know that all of thailand's clothes cost below $10? And their delicious food cost an average of $1. Believe it or not. And their Phad thai cost only $0.90. It taste as good as Thai Express's or even better. On top of that, they sell roti prata. Interesting huh. But their is without curry. Instead it is flavoured with banana and chocolate. Super duper yummy right? okok, enough of me ranting on and on. When i get back, you will get to feast your eyes on all the beautiful pictures. (:

Anyway i need to concentrate on my work. stop getting so excited. Hahahahah. i can't help it. Love love <3

Thanks be to god for letting all the planning sail through smoothly. Without his help i guess i wouldn't be able to do this myself. Praise be to God. Hopefully this trip will be really fun. All are in god's hands. <3

Toodles kiddos.

One heart, one love, one soul

2008-07-30T22:02:00.007+08:00

You have stolen my heart baby. For eternal it shall be.

A sad sad post.

Anyway, I read this girl's blog today which got me really upset. Well, apparently she was the girlfriend of the late Clifton Lam Jia Hao.20 . He passed away during SAF jungle training in brunei. And they had been together for like 3 years. Can you imagine the amount of pain she must have felt due to his sudden departure?
I guess noone will be able to understand. She didnt even have the chance to kiss him goodbye. To hug him goodbye.
To date, noone found out what actually caused his death.
I can't imagine myself in her shoes. I felt this huge sense of loss when i was reading her blog. What if the same thing happens to baby when he goes off to army? Life is so short. I think we should appreciate everyone around us. She had such great plans for them when they grew up, just like me. In some ways, their relationship was very similiar to mine. And that is what scares me.

One heart, one love, one soul

I just can't lose you, do you know?
I just can't imagine my life without you.
Without your hugs
Without your kisses
Without your love
Without your daily morning messages
Without your daily good nights kisses
Without your daily afternoon calls
Without your daily 'after school' calls
Without you tucking me into bed
Without throwing stupid tantrums at you and blame it on PMS
Without you cuddling me even after i physically abused you.
Without you apologising to me, even though it is MY FAULT
Without you holding me so close when i am upset and telling me everything will just be alright.
Without you simply saying 'i love you'
Without your body heat
Without your warm safe smell
I just can't imagine myself without you.
Baby, you have become a part of me.
A very intimate part. Now shall be, forever will be.

If you go, i will follow. bring me with you, dont you dare forget.
but but, I WANT TO GO FIRST! STUPID PIG. its a deal yeah?

I love you. And i will never let you go. one heart, one love, one soul.
It is just like the famous phrase ' you jump, i jump'
'you die, i die' simple as that.

I LOVE BABY. <3

2008-07-23T13:18:00.003+08:00

i am too busy to blog recently. I promise i will do so after exams alright. Lots of projects due this week.

I miss BB. <3 Ice cream-ing later with sheila and aaron. Going to botanic gardens with bb later. I love baby super alot. Can't wait to see him later. BYE BYE.

Anyway, i will dedicate a blog entry to ALEX soon. I think the world deserves to know what a 'fantastic' person he is. burn burn burn in hell bitch.

toodles woodles

So tired recently

2008-07-10T21:09:00.004+08:00

Poly life can be so fun yet demanding. I didn't do well for Management of Business( MOB )! Damn! Its time to start studying again. I like effective communication lessons. They are so interesting. (:

Had Statts, mob and econs lectures today. I think statts isn't as difficult as i initially thought it to be. It can be really interesting in fact. I just need more time to 'befriend' it! MOB requires me to have wonderful memory skills which apparently i don't? But i love MRS SZETO! She is really a super awesome MOB teacher. she is so motherly and nice. Always so caring towards us. I really like her so i will study hard for her and of course myself. Actually, all the teachers are so nice. AWESOME! Unlike disgusting SRJC teachers who are grumpy and horrible. YES! SRJC teachers have absolutely lousy teaching skills except probably for MR HO.

I am so busy recently i do not have time for all my other friends. somehow i feel so guilty for neglecting them. Sorry guys, i will try to meet up with you after my exams alright! LOL ( Lots of love)

Off to meet BB tomorrow. Can't wait! With much much love BB. <3>

To this----->

2008-07-09T23:45:00.002+08:00

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
And all I can taste is this moment A
nd all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

I miss my baby like alot <3

School is so demanding. I have to start mugging soon.
IDEAS ca3 coming up. Going to be busy again!
Anyway i think SP's teachers are awesome.

I have school at 8-5 tomorrow. Got to recharge my energy! so toodles people.

the gay is really gay.

2008-07-04T10:31:00.002+08:00

I am in class now! Off to meet BB later. Stupid bb. Fell asleep last night without tucking me into bed.

I've got some of my results back. I guess i did alright but its not good enough.

Accounts - 80, Econs- 74, Mob( PBL ) - 74 and Ideas- 83.

I think I am so dead at itab. Really! i will have to work extra hard because for the next MST( the week after next) i wanna score 90 and above for almost all my subjects. Rachel will have to work harder harder and harder. Econs was such a let down.

Study study off i go. I love you bb. SEE YA LATER. MUACKS!

My lappy's wallpaper. (: I must be motivated motivated motivated!

2008-06-25T19:20:00.002+08:00

I miss you baby; <3

Itab was super bad today. Damn it. And i haven't really started on MOB revision. I should just murder myself now. All i want is baby with me. Your presence makes me feel safe. I simple love it when you hug me so warm and tightly. I love you baby pie. Love love love love love love love <3

I want to study for mob now but i think i should watch tv instead. DAMN!
Toodles~

2008-06-23T16:11:00.005+08:00

Hey hey hey hey boobseys. Ok, holiday pretty much ended. Exams are here. I had PACC exam today. It was such a bitch! I did the 2006-2007 past year exam papers and they were easy peasy. BUTTTTTTT the paper today was horrible horrible. My A is flying away.

PEEKS TO SHARE. My sentosa trip with BFF.

Suntan loving
brenda brenda. <3 href="http://bp3.blogger.com/_l-zOcanf5Ms/SF9cf-wTqmI/AAAAAAAAACg/RDkpKk7DTq0/s1600-h/CIMG1324.JPG"> candid. We were caught off guard.
i look like a crazy woman

Gold hair yo.

Alright, enough peeks. toodles people.

2008-06-21T13:12:00.004+08:00

I am back sugars. Everyone said i went missing for a period of time. I guess i was just toooooo tired to actually reply people's messages and calls. Exams in 2 days time. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Damn it!

I miss meifen...... she went missing tooooooooooooooooooooooooo.

Short hair people. Is it niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee? Btw, in that pic i have no make up on. Hahahaha, i look kind of ....... child-like

Fun fun fun fun

2008-06-04T22:52:00.005+08:00

Daddy and the guide, who ended up helping daddy carry his backpack because daddy is tooooo fat to carry it himself.

Mummy,daddy and david are back from climbing Mount Ophir. Look at how cute they look in their climbing outfits. Hahahaha. Oh gosh. I've missed them.

It was really freaky being home alone but i had FUN! (: I love i love i love i love. Yesterday i went for supper with BFF joe and friend. Had char kway teow. Yummy! I ended up having to take midnight cab home. $16 dollars damn it!

I have a horrible horrible pimple on my nose. DAMN IT! And there is class outing this monday at East Coast Park. I am not stepping out of my house until this pimple disappears. I am so upset over the pimple. I am probably going to visit my dermatologist again. I hate pimples.

I miss you bb. i miss you so damn much. i want to see you again. I can never have enough of you. Never. Love you <3>

Meeting my dear meifen to study tomorrow! hopefully we WILL study!

Toodles people.

not too long after

2008-06-02T00:22:00.007+08:00

I miss brenda lim kuku. Remember our friendship watch? I miss thailand so much much much much!

Chatuchak. Picture taken by brenda while we were waiting for our Phad thai! Oh yes. did i mention that food in thailand is really really cheap? Its like their food on an average cost around S$1.Thailand was fantastic. We took Cathay Pacific Airways. A great flight. The most fantastic thing was taking business class. Great food, great service, great entertainment. We stayed in Indra regent hotel. I love indra regent. Although it isn't any 6* hotel, i think its a 4* or 5* hotel, they have fantastic customer service. They couldn't find a room which had twin beds so they gave us a room with a huge bed on the executive floor. Splendid view from the huge windows. Great shopping places near the hotel. You can even walk to siam square or central mall from the hotel. that is if you want to buy branded items. Items in thailand cost less than S$10! cheap cheap! I will probably blog more and upload more pics that is IF brenda lim sends them ASAP.

i watched this video on youtube. The world is coming to an end in 2012. Do you think it is true? As a christian i shall not comment. Predictions may be false. However, you never know what will happen in 4 years time. As said in the bible, fire will descend from the sky above and the end of world shall come. Sounds kind of scary isn't it. I am a sinful human being. I am afraid. Yes, to die. However to die is to live. a total new life in heaven. COOL? its called the eternal life. just a pact between GOD and me.

life has been kind of depressing. or at least i am feeling kind of depressed. Maybe i will just have depression and i shall not eat. WHOOOOOOOOO. Back to being the 27KG in secondary one. Hahahahahahahaha. i am seriously really heavy now. i will be happy if i am 43kg. my ideal weight. or at least, YOUR IDEAL WEIGHT FOR ME. Maybe you will stop calling me names like : Fat girl, Pig, Big butt, Fat as..........( many many more )

Mommy, Daddy and david are going overseas in like 6 hours. damnit. i am stuck all alone at home. Kind of freaky thinking about it. I am so happy holidays are here. I HATE SCHOOL. BIG TIME.

i miss my baby who is studying for his exams. Good luck baby! i love love love love love you to bits and pieces.

All in all, what i have to say is :

Ethic of Reciprocity/ The golden rule

"Do not do to others what you do not want them to do to you" Analects 15:23

Here i am again

2008-05-29T13:17:00.003+08:00

I am feeling so moody now that i dont feel like blogging.

MOOD SWINGS MOOD SWINGS MOOD SWINGS. RAWRRRRRR.

I miss you meifen. You're always able to brighten up my day. I love you bestfriend. You'll always be my bestfriend forever. <3

All in a day

2008-05-26T20:13:00.008+08:00

I am feeling really grumpy now.

School was rather mundane today. We had IDEAS CA2 presentation today. Fantastic! I think we did really well. Good job girls. I love you <3>

Recently i've been watching xoxo gossip girl. It is really interesting. Scandalous, bitchy........ you name it, they've got it.

I love you darling clique. <3>

I know i know. You must be wondering, THATS RACHEL? I know i looked like a little boy! Nah, thats my twin sister, rachieeeee. Haha. Picture was probably taken when i was in seconday 3?

I like to camwhore. (: Its just rachel.

I love you, i like you. You miss me, you don't. So which is which? give me a little loving.

An insect's death.

2008-05-26T13:14:00.003+08:00

I found this really funny story. i wrote it around 2 years ago? It happened in class when i was in CHIJ saint theresa's convent! Enjoy!

While we were standing, (here comes the story) we heard a buzzing sound. The sound was quite loud. And all of a sudden, a huge insect flew right past us and into the classroom. And there it hovered near us and the door. Valerie was sitting near the door and being so attractive, the insect flew toward her and landed on her skirt. She did not know. Meifen and me were screaming as softly so we could trying to warn her about the EVIL INSECT. She looked and with a cool flick of her finger, gave the INSECT the ride of it's life. The poor insect flew off her skirt and landed on the hard cold cement floor. All of us were prompting her to step on the insect and end it's poor little life. But she was too frightened to. So she used a piece of tissue paper, covered the insect and she stepped on the insect twice. But you know what! The insect did not die. So, i kicked the piece of tissue paper along with the insect out of the classroom. There, i covered the insect with another layer of tissue paper and stepped on it twice. So the insect was stepped on four times already. But you know what, it did not die. Brave meifen took another piece of tissue paper, covered the insect with it and she stepped on it. And all of us heard a sickening crack sound. OUCH! We pulled the tissue paper apart to find the poor insect 'bleeding'. And i told meifen to leave it alone since it was already dead. But it was not. Meifen took another piece of tissue paper and stepped on the insect a few more time, out came another sickening crack. And more blood appeared. Finally the evil insect died. God bless): We killed a poor little insect. How mean (: but i am not remorseful. HA!

FUNNY ISN'T IT! okay. I am in class now! maybe i will blog later in the night.

hello you.

2008-05-25T12:17:00.008+08:00

Oh yes. we had to go miss clairty cafe for our project. Let me show you some pictures. Maybe ill upload more after the presentation.

I've got curly wurly hair. (:

I am back to blogging, blogging, blogging, blogging! (: I have alot of thing to blog about but i am too lazy to do so. Anyway, i have sorted out all my problems/issues whatever you call it. Things are going kind of well. School is pretty good. I've ideas CA2 presentation tomorrow. i suppose we are going to do pretty well because i think our slides are fantastic.

I am still tired from all the recent activities. Like michelle's birthday party, jessie's birthday party and now, there is meifen's birthday party coming up. Daddy, mummy and brother are going overseas during june. The whole house is mine mine mine. Going to catch up on my much needed rest and i am going to have tons of fun with you. RIGHT RIGHT? (: A happy rachel= a nice rachel.

I miss you barbie barbie.
Athough things aren't going so well and i've been throwing tantrums. Being totally demanding, unreasonable, rude...........and the list goes on. you are just so patient and understanding. Thank you barbie. i love you lotsie lotsie. <3

I AM SICK TODAY. So i am going to rest now. TOODLES <3

2007-10-29T21:28:00.001+08:00

I LOVE SUNTANNING.

I haven't been blogging for ages.
You can see from my very last post which was like dingdong years ago.
Anyway, since i've got nothing much to do i shall get back to blogging.

My class is having a party this coming wednesday. I hope it is going to be fun!!

I MISS YOU FATSOOOOO. <3
I MISS WEIQIAN. <3 ( I shall bake you LOVE cookies alright? )
I LOVE FENGXIAN! <3

2007-04-13T16:53:00.000+08:00

Hi bestfriend ! :D
I miss you alot !
Hurry meet up soon k.
Then we can catch up.
Lovelove.
<3

2007-03-18T13:52:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MEIFEN!

You silly billy! always making me worry!
i miss you!

2007-01-22T21:39:00.000+08:00

I am so irritated.
Why is MI located at such a loser location please.
It's so far from EVERYWHERE making travelling such a chore.
That's SOOOOOOOOOOOO IRRITATING.
Well, loser location for a loser school.
I SOOOO PITY the students.
they poor poor poor little 'things'
Hate me, love me.

Anyway, i am SOOOO deprived of my computer!!!

Friday.
I went to KAP for mac breakfast.
Met up with huei chin,eeren, meifen, kyna and glenn.
Ngee ann poly open house was quite fine.
The whole campus is HUGEEEEEEEEEEEEE (:
After that went to beauty world to watch the guys play ,whatever it is.
Left them to meet up with my EYECANDY and friend (:
walked around. found whatever they were looking for.
slacked.
After that i left them to look for meifen.
walked around PS, ate at rocky master.
Walked all the way to cinea to meet up with sasha, shanna and natlong.
slacked.
reached home at 12 (:

Saturday.
Stayed home all the way till 3.
Left for my FAVOURITE GIRL's birthday party.
It was quite a blast (:
HAPPY 17 BIRTHDAY my dearest!
I LOVE YOU MANY MANY MANY <3
We had lots lots lots of food!
YAY. and of course, they were playing cards.

Sunday.
Went to church.
was feeling really sleepy!
Went to eat chicken rice. YUMMY.
Walked around PS.
Saw huei chin and ee ren.
HAPPY 11th month anniversary sexy!
I LOVE YOU MANY MANY <3
javan bought zx her birthday present.
Went home and watched DVD-s.
SLEPT (:

Monday.
slacking at home all day!
Watched like mike and like mike 2.
it's quite a nice show (:
I can't wait to see my eyecandy.
SWEETEST <3

i need to get a job real soon.
I still hate MI.
I MISS MY CHUA MEIFEN.
Anyway, that irritating girl will never be as pretty as you <3
I LOVE YOU <3
My show is starting.
LOVE YOU GUYS!
BYEBYE <3

2007-01-11T20:32:00.000+08:00

YAY!
Everything is just fine now!
SO that means i am back to being a happy little girl(:
i'm so glad it ended up being like that!
Well, there's the ups and downs in everything <3
and of course, we got through it without a fight!
I AM JUST SO HAPPY.

Oh yes, i'm SO proud of you!!
thank you for being so understanding.
come to think of it. we never had a single quarrel .
i just can't believe it!
YES YES!
You're the GREATEST!
WOAHHHHHHHHHHHH (:

I miss studying. like very very much!
I miss you, i miss him, i miss her.
I miss many many things.
but of course, i miss something / someone the MOST!
My eyecandy is just so uber cute!

Anyway, chermin! don't be too upset alright!
i believe everything will be fine!

MEIFEN,you're too fat. you should lose alot alot alot alot of weight.
oh yeah! i shall accompany you.
I want to be 40KG!

Alright. i will blog another day!
I will try to be more regular(:
BYE BYE!

2007-01-09T10:23:00.000+08:00

I don't even know if you've any idea what went wrong.
I don't appreciate being so unappreciated.

i'm so tired.

2006-12-10T15:07:00.000+08:00

I guess i was PMS-ing for the whole of last week.
Now, i am a happy girl(:
I am going to look for a job on monday!
I want to experience how it's like to work.
I want the $$$ too.
Interesting!

I feel extremely sleepy.
Anyway, I MISS YOU!
Zexin left for mission trip w aaron!
That's really fun.
I'm lazy to blog anymore!
BYE BYE!

2006-12-06T21:43:00.000+08:00

Don't leave.

I'm lonely.

I LOVE YOU STILL.

I hate this.

2006-12-05T21:47:00.000+08:00

All of my life
I've waited for someone like you
I feel it when I look at you
In your eyes I see the truth
All of my life
I've spent day and day just loving you
And when you're away, I'm missing you
Now tell me what am I gonna do

All of my life
I'll give you everything you'll ever need
Always be a part of me
You're the reason that I breathe
All of my life
I've spent day and day just loving you
And when you're away, I keep missing you
Now tell me what am I gonna do

I went to east coast with shaoer today.
zx and me were being anti-social.
The SUPER P were there and as usual, they were being super P.
zx and me couldn't stop commenting on them.
Something which i don't think is nice.
i love blogging but i do not know what to blog about((:

i am a happy girl!
it's just a few more days to go.
an important event.
I'm proud of you little one.

ending phrase - NIGU-s are damn 'COOL'

2006-12-04T22:32:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY LITTLE PRETTY!
SUPER NICE NICE NICE!
BEST BEST BEST!

2006-11-19T15:08:00.000+08:00

Super pretty fountain!

Dining at sakae.

MICHELLE, ME, MEIFEN AND JESSIE. WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.

LEG LEGS LEGGY. My girls.

i've been missing out on quite alot of things lately and now i am attempting to catch up with EVERYTHING.
Went shopping yesterday. It was rather fruitless.
Oh we took pictures at sentosa.
More coming up i am too lazy to blog.

GOODDAY!

I am angry with you! I am angry with you for making me miss you so much.

YOU IRRITATING FELLOW!

DO YOU KNOW THAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOU MAKE ME FEEL AS IF YOU DO NOT HAVE ENOUGH TIME FOR ME.

BUT I KNOW SOMEHOW IT'S MY FAULT TOO.

YOU'RE GONNA SPEND EVERY SINGLE BIT OF YOUR TIME WITH ME FROM NOW ON.

THAT'S A PROMISE.

AND YOU'RE GONNA KEEP TO IT (:

i love you, MY LITTLE PB (:

2006-08-22T14:30:00.000+08:00

How dare you make assumptions.
How dare you accuse me of doing things which you did too.
How dare you look down on me.
How dare you be so full of yourself.
How dare you think so highly of yourself.
How dare you mock others.
How dare you be so damn selfish when you expect others to be generous.
How dare you judge me.
Who are you to judge me.
You have absolutely NO RIGHT to.
Who are you to look down on almost everybody.
Those whom you think are not worthy of being your friends.
I BET YOU'RE THE ONE WHO IS NOT WORTHY OF BEING THEIR FRIENDS.
You simply love poking your stinky nose into my life isn't it.
It's BLOODY IRRITATING.
Let me repeat myself, IT'S BLOODY IRRITATING.
What's wrong with you!
Can't you just leave me alone.
I have never done any thing to you.

Seriously. You should look at yourself in the mirror.
You're NOT THAT GREAT either.
You not only have LOW IQ, you definitely have LOW EQ.
This shows that you're just an empty shell.
You MAY be good looking, to some at least.
BUT to me, YOU'RE SOOOOO NOT GOOD LOOKING.
Your character totally ruined your whole outlook.
I am not insulting you, i believe that i am stating facts.

You're so not worthy of any of my attention.
But FUCK, apparently you got it.

I HATE YOU. YES, I DOOOOOOO.
Well, i do not like to hate someone.
As a matter of fact, you should really feel honoured.
LIMXINHUA HAS NEVER HATED ANYONE BEFORE.
YES, YOU'RE THE FIRST.

I believe in retribution.

2006-08-21T15:06:00.000+08:00

HELLOOOOOOO! It's been such a long time since i've blogged.
You see, i've been really hardworking all these while.
Studying all day! I bet you guys didn't!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA.
Since i haven't been blogging, i kind of forgot most of the things i wanted to blog about.

Prelims are in 2 weeks time. i am SOOOO STRESSED.
I have tuition almost everyday. 6 times a week.
Wonderful isn't it.
And YES, i need help with my sciences.

I MISS MY FRIENDDDDDDDDD.
YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO GO OUT WITH ME!!!!!
YOU BETTER COME ONLINE SOON.
AS SOON AS YOU READ THIS.
TAN XINYI!!!
I LIKE THE DRESS THAT YOU GOT.
IT'S SO UBER CUTE.
LET'S GO AND CUT OUR HAIR.
LET'S GO SHOP FOR MORE DRESSES.
ANYWAY, I WANT SKINNY JEANS!!!
WE SHALL GO AND BUY THEM.
MEET ME FOR LUNCH ONE DAY!!!!!

I have self study programme later. I do hope i will be able to concentrate.
Anyway, my maths really noob. i need to brush up on it.
LALALALALALALALA.

I MISS YOUUUUUU.
YES, YOU YOU!!
I BET YOU MISS ME TOO!
COME TO ME, COME TO ME!!
OH MY!! YOU'RE THE HOTTESTTTT PERSON ON EARTH.
YES YES. TRUST ME! *NODS
DAMN, I LOVE YOU<3

2006-08-16T17:32:00.000+08:00

I need more $$$$.
And mom is refusing to give me more because she claims that i am spending too much.
Never mind, never mind.

YOU'RE LIKE SUPER DUPER CHEENA PIANG.
You type very cheena things.
You have cheena songs on your blog.
OMGOSH. YOU'RE A PURE CHEENA.
It's just so weird.
One thing, i DO NOT despise you((:

I shall study. But i do not know what to start with.
Oh yes. I LOVE MATHS.
Anyone heard of this school called, Bukit Panjang Government High School.
My teacher told me that it's a band one school.
Which means the school is around the same standard as RI, RGS.......
But i've never heard of this school before.
Weird isn't it.

Enough said. i got to go and study. much much love<3 bye bye!

I LOVE YOU HOT.

2006-08-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

Here's some pictures for you people to view. I hope you get an idea of the kind of dresses we were wearing that day!

Anyway, it was quite a fun day! BUT everyone was tired! So most were looking quite dead. After photo taking, mich, CMF and me went to town. Had breakfast. Walked around. Left town for home at around 3 o'clock. I took a rest at home. Went out at night with friends. It was really fun! Thank you for making my day! I LOVE YOU<3>

I was so tired today! Slept at 2am in the morning and i woke up at 8 to go church. Church was fine! i miss my dear friends!

Oh, yes. And i did interesting things<3>

BABY! BABY! BABY!

2006-08-05T14:22:00.000+08:00

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

This is for you<3

2006-08-04T17:30:00.000+08:00

Oh my gosh, exams are nearing.
It's time to get down to being serious.

I had an wonderful wonderful day yesterday.
Thank you so much for making my day.
I LOVE YOU<3

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEE JIA!!!
YOU'RE ONE YEAR OLDER!!

I think this chinese song is really good.
I seldom listen to chinese songs. So trust my taste : D
It's called, TONG LEI((:

2006-07-29T13:54:00.000+08:00

I do not want you to visit my blog. My things do not concern you. So stop poking your nose into my business and keep your mouth SHUT. Get your ass back to where you came from. Not say that i am mean. I barely even know you. Don't make me bite. It's not gonna be pleasant.

Mummy is gonna bring me out to shop for my whites.I am planning to get a dress but i am totally clueless to where to get them. I do not want to end up appearing on photo taking day wearing something similar to someone. It's just not nice. Michelle and meifen both got their whites. Give me some ideas. Frankly saying, i am rather reluctantly to spend too much money on my whites. I prefer to spend more on my prom dress. Argh, this is such a bother.

I LOVE YOU<3

2006-07-28T16:13:00.000+08:00

i've been shitting blood for the past few days.
oh and the amount of blood increases each day.
i'm quite scared of going to the toilet.
it isn't exactly very pleasant to find blood in your shit.
it scares me.
internal bleeding?
i do not know.

we were discussing about breast cancer in CME today.
it's scary to have to have to remove your breast.
i will feel weird without my breast.
And of course, i will look weird without them.

this is to CMF.
How did my belt end up being in the drain?!
who THREW my belt into the drain?!
YOU TELL ME.
YOU KNOW THE BEST.
ASS.
why don't i answer the questions for you!!
My belt belt ended up in the drain because CMF VERY accidentally dropped it.
Oh reason because i proclaimed that noone in the world is capable of bullying me except for CMF.
And once again, she proved me right.

School was boring.
I SO LOVE TO STUDY!!
I shall go and study later.

YESTERDAY WAS A GREAT DAY!
HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!<3
VERY!!

i just wanna tell you that you're the best.

life is made wonderful because there's you.

I LOVE YOU, PRETTY<3

2006-07-25T16:17:00.000+08:00

I've got MC for one month.
that means, NO PE for ONE MONTH.
it's good news for lazy people like me.
a very good one indeed.

I miss my CMF.
CMF was so moody today.
Not fun at all.
To add on to all that, she heard some pretty bad news.
bad bad bad.
what is this world becoming of?!

i'm happy.
oh yeah, my face hurts like mad.
and it's damn damn damn red now.
it's been red the whole of today.
i'm so gonna die.
i'm in agony.

I just came out from the toilet.
i just did my business.
my whole toilet bowl was bloody.
there was alot alot alot of blood.
i DO NOT have my menses.
this is weird. like seriously weird.
I'm scared.

2006-07-24T19:48:00.000+08:00

WHY DO I MISS YOU SO MUCH?!
WHY ARE YOU ON MY MIND ALL THE TIME?!
And i mean ALL THE TIME.
I MISS YOU SO MUCH.
LIKE HELL LOADS.
I AM GOING CRAZY.
I'M JUST GONNA DROP DEAD ON THE FLOOR.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!
WHY WHY WHY WHY?
AND THERE'S NO RECEPTION.
THERE'S NO RECEPTION.
I'M SO DEAD.

I LOVE YOU<3
YOU LOVE ME<3

2006-07-17T19:25:00.000+08:00

I think this dress is HOT. At least for me it is. It's real pretty too. Suitable for almost all occasions. Add on a little of your own style. You're gonna be really outstanding((: i like it! I DO.

We had chinese O's listening comprehension today. I forgot to bring my ez-link or IC and my entry proof. How great. In the end, i had to go to the general office to get them. BUT not without a severe scolding from my principal. I do hope i will do well for my chinese. Wish my luck!

YOU ARE MISSED. I KNOW YOU MISS ME. YOU HOT HOT HOT LITTLE THING! BEAUTIFUL LOVE<3

LOVE<3

i have come a long way, just to hold your hand.

no matter what, i will be holding on.

because i love you.

2006-07-16T17:11:00.000+08:00

remember, you got this for me. it is so PRETTY. it's my favourite earring. sometimes, i am rather reluctant to wear it. it's too nice! isn't it! thank you so much.

MUCH LOVE FROM ME TO YOU<3

2006-07-16T16:57:00.000+08:00

YAY. i think i did it. can you see?! Anyway, i took that pic with CMF in the toilet over at habourfront. that's a kiss just for me. i don't think we look dumb. we were just bored waiting for michelle to be done with her, business(((:

2006-07-16T16:38:00.000+08:00

so little time, so many things.
oh yeah, i got myself a little something yesterday.
something i think which is really pretty.
i'm really happy.
alright i shall admit.
we went shopping instead of selling flags.
it was TOO TEMPTING.
we did sell flags but not much.

i'm gonna go out with xinyi soon.
HI SLUT.
i bet you're reading this now.
so see you soon.
mUiI isHh shOO eXciTeDd nEhxxx.

thanks, that's very sick.
i don't know why.
i seem to love digusting myself.
is it only me?
i guess not((:

LIM SISTER!!
i know you miss me.
i miss you too.
you will see me tomorrow.
so don't you cry!

CMF. you said you're gonna blog.
oh yes you did.
but you died after the first post.
GES. you deserve it.
whatever.

remember the ballroom party alright.
i will kill you if you don't.
the budget should be at least 10K.
that's about it.
we will talk about it soon dearie.

my blog is really boring.
i shall try to upload pics.

2006-07-15T17:33:00.000+08:00

i met a pervert today.
i doubt anyone really cares.
so i'm not gonna blog about it.
anyway, flagday was fun.
i had only less than 10 people donating.
so guess the weight of my tin.
pathetic isn't it.
Oh, and i had bird shit/insect shit on my hair.
it's so sick. i was screaming my head off while my friends were cleaning it off for me.
we collected our tins over at tiong baruh shopping centre early in the morning.
after that we took the bus to suntec city.
walked around. ended up in the toilet dancing.
hahahahahahha. i'm not out of point.
we really went to the toilet to practice dancing.
i think we stayed there for more than half an hour.
asked for more donations.
that's about it.
so tada.
bye bye((:

2006-07-14T16:20:00.000+08:00

appreciate me.
at least when i am still around.
not when i am gone.
it hurts.
you will never understand.

I DO NOT LIKE TO LIVE.

i still love you like mad. don't leave me please.

2006-07-13T18:07:00.000+08:00

Oh, thinking about all our younger years,
There was only you and me,
We were young and wild and free.
Now nothing can take you away from me.
We’ve been down that road before,
But that's over now.
You keep me coming back for more.

Baby you're all that I want.
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven.
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart.
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven.

Now, nothing could change what you mean to me.
There's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now,
Cause our love will light the way.

Baby you're all that I want.
When you're lying here in my arms
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven.
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart.
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven.

Now our dreams are coming true.
Through the good times and the bad
I'll be standing there by you.

(We’re in heaven.)
And love is all that I need
And I found it there in your heart.
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven.

remember, you were the one who found the song for me.
it will always remain as my favourite song.
everything, because i love you.
just a simple thing made complicated.

2006-07-13T15:22:00.000+08:00

i am talking to baoling now.
talking to her is extremely difficult.
let me tell you why.
she uses alot singlish.
something i can't blame her for.
but she uses it excessively.
all the 'lah, meh, leh.....'
it makes the sentences look really stupid.
worst of all, she has lots of typo errors.
and she can't be bothered to correct them.
leaving me to guess what she's trying to get across to me.
and sometimes, i do ask her what she's trying to say.
she will either say 'nothing or huh'
and she doesn't spell her nothing as nothing. she spells ntg.
i shall copy and paste an interesting part of the conversation.

baoling says:weiqian loves sweet?
xinhua says:yeah
xinhua says:she does
baoling says:hah
baoling says:huh?
xinhua says:i should be the one saying that
xinhua says:you're confusing me

and mind you, before that we were talking about something else.
it's really random of her.
and she talks about guys all the time.
isn't it weird.
oh, she's apparently challenging her friend.
their challenge is to see who has more friends on their contact list.
and i said 'oh, that's so fun!'
ISN'T IT!?

i am amused.
very amused.
she's quite nice to chat with.
except maybe for her english.
i must learn to understand her kind of english.
or else, it's not possible to talk to her AT ALL.

2006-07-10T18:13:00.000+08:00

Everything is happening so quickly.
things are getting complicated.
i don't have much time left.
thank you so much for making my day once again.
i'm yours, always.

just another pretty happening<3

beautiful beyond words.

2006-07-08T11:53:00.000+08:00

it came as a shock.
it did, for everyone.
i went yesterday.
everyone is holding up fine.
it's written in the bible that god won't let us handle things that we won't be able to handle.
god knows that they will be able to stay strong.
he will give them strength to.
through jasper's death, i've learn to accept death.
tears, pain, sorrow, fear, all these are parts of everything.

i've accepted his passing on.
i don't feel sad for him.
nope. because i know he is now safe.
resting, in peace.
i'm just sad that he is not among us anymore.
he is a great elder.
a role model in fact.
we will see him again.
and that's for eternal.
get it, it's for eternal.
in a world where there's no pain, sorrow, fear and no death.
everyday, we will sing for joy.
isn't it wonderful.
he is just a step ahead of us.
we will meet, again.
i love you.

we should learn to cherish everyone around us.
you never know when they might suddenly leave us.

even me.

2006-07-03T23:58:00.000+08:00

i'm back, after an enjoyable but tiring day.
surprisingly, i am rather awake now.
i decided to do an E math paper after blogging.
i've been a rather bad girl these few days.
mum's been scolding me quite often recently.
i guess they have rather high expectations from me.
i don't wanna disappoint them!
I'm gonna study hard and be a good girl!

Liren daddy is currently on his way to New zealand!
I am so sad! i didn't have the chance to send him off at the airport today.
Sorry daddy! if you're reading this, i just wanna let you know that you're the best father in the whole wide world!
I LOVE YOU<3 you're my favourite person!
Take good care of yourself over there.
I will very much await for your return!

today was an enjoyable today!
Yum yum. i love my present!
THANK YOU LITTLE PRETTY<3
you'll get yours soon enough!
LOVES LOVES LOVES<3

naughty naughty naughty!

love me! love me! love me!

i miss weiqian and zexin.
they are the only few people whom i trust.
we all seek comfort in the arms of the lord.
I LOVE YOU SWEETIES!

2006-07-03T09:56:00.000+08:00

England lost. I am sad.
it was rather expected though.

without their star players, owen, rooney and beckham, how would you expect them to 'survive' on the field.

i went out with weiqian yesterday.

waited for her while she had her tuition.

it was dead dead dead boring.

It was so boring that i did something i usually wouldn't do.

Which was to talk to a bloody chee chee!

Whatever!

Saw this really pretty top that i wanna get but they didn't have my size

i'm so sad. never mind, there are more to come.

i am lazy! going out of my house now. bye bye peeps.

anyway chinese o's oral is tomorrow.

good luck to all those who are taking it.

2006-07-01T11:30:00.000+08:00

it makes me really sick to know that she thinks so highly of herself.
how digusting please.
to even think that i felt she was nice.
how naive!
i can't stand people like that.
when a person lies alot, she will think that everyone is lying to her.
it's the same.
i actually liked her as a friend.
now she had to come and ruin everything.
if i wanted something from her, i would have taken action long ago.
what can i gain from being with her.
nothing! nothing at all.
and why her? please, i have plenty of other friends who are better off than her.
such a dumb thinking.
I HATE FERDEE!!

Things are never gonna be the same again.
Even though they resolved the issue.
She gave a frigging stupid reason.
'because you changed'
oh please, that's not a valid reason at all.
or shall i call it, an excuse.
i forgave you but it doesn't mean that i am prepared to be friends with you again.
Seriously, i don't even bother.
We are better off without friends like them.
you never know when they will turn around and stab you on your back AGAIN.

i had an enjoyable day today.
you must be jealous.
hahahahahaha. too bad.
all for me right! all for me<3
my stomach hurts and i am irritated.
i am dead tired but i wanna watch football.
whatever. anyway, i like weiqian's blog's tagboard's font.
mum is pissed with me now. and she's gonna leave the house.
i don't give a damn.

2006-06-30T10:39:00.000+08:00

I am so gonna go get the zara sunhat.
It's just too pretty to be left there, untouched.
I am so crazy over hats! <3 them!
They are frigging nice please!

things are going rather smoothly.
i guess she's gonna go sort things out with her today!
the worst part is that i am gonna miss out on all that.
never mind, never mind!
but i swear that i will kill her if she lays a finger on her.
just joking! i am talking big.

Brenda lim yu ting refuses to get a tagboard. )):

I am missing alot of people.
BUT I MISS YOU THE MOST<3
It's not good to know pretty people.
You will start to miss them once they are not by your side.

Anyway, i think that having TNN is nice.
It's so weird to see girls who are totally flat wearing bikinis.
It's like they have barely anything to cover.
No offence but seriously that's what i feel.
Yeah, tell me that most models on the runway are flat too.
They are whites! Whites have much hotter bodies.
They are pretty, leggy and curvy.
Don't compare yourself to them.

Unfaithful(:

2006-06-29T17:29:00.000+08:00

I am naughty! Meifen is naughty. Wee choong is naughty. Fat maid is naughty. Silent hill is GAY! YAY! GAY! YAY! GAY! YAY! DON'T WATCH IT!! IT'S TOO GAY FOR COOL PEOPLE LIKE YOU! Fat maid is the funniest human being i've ever known so far. She's real funny! A great person to look for if you want some form of entertainment. I'm not saying she's some entertainer but she's just real funny. We got FREE POCORNS TO EAT, FREE CHEESE SAUSAGES, FREE DRINKS AND FREE MOVIE TICKETS! All thanks to weechoong! He's nice. Went out with leilani and diana today. We ate at pepper lunch. YUM YUM! Anyway, we saw her there. How lucky! It was kidda awkward. I waved to chermin before she left pepper lunch. I wan't wearing contacts so i was half blind. I am not sure if i waved to her. I have no intention to at all. Like whatever. The only person i am most fine with is like chermin. She's nice.

I wanna buy a dress and i love hats.<<3 I am totally random.

I LOVE GOING OUT WITH LEILANI AND DIANA! THEY ARE DAMN FUN!
No, actually i am the one who is damn fun. YAY! HAHAHAHAHAHA.
If diana sees this, she's just gonna roll her eyes and scold me.
Oh yeah! I am just joking((:

You became EVERYTHING TO ME<3

2006-06-25T19:11:00.000+08:00

I am traumatised!
Like for real!
I called ms wong weiqian just a moment ago.
Her sister picked up the phone.
The conversation went like this:

Xinhua: Hello! May i speak to weiqian?
Weili: Weiqian is not home. She's out having tuition.
Weiqian's mom: WEILI!!! WHO IS THAT?!
Weili: Oh, mummy! What time does sister's tuition end?!It's sister's school friend.

Weiqian's mom grabbed the phone over from weili.

Weiqian's mom: Hello! May i know who is speaking?

Mind you, i was feeling really traumatised.

Xinhua: I am weiqian's school friend ( in a very high girlish voice, highly unnatural)
Weiqian's mom: What's your name?! What do you want from weiqian?! Weiqian is having tuition.
Xinhua: I am valerie! Oh, nothing much! ( in a very high girlish voice, higly unnatural)
Weiqian's mom: If that's so, please call back at 8.

YEAH!
I AM TRAUMATISED.
I had to use a high girlish voice VERY unnatural.
I am not called valarie.
I am not weiqian's school friend.

Mark was scary today.
He was like trying to sit beside me.
Oh no, he is scary.
Weiqian and me were damn scared.
i'm pretty sure mark was enjoying every single moment.
WHATEVER((:

Church was normal as usual.
Had service and worship.
I ENJOYED EVERY SINGLE MOMENT I HAD WITH YOU TODAY: D
THANKS MAN((:
Great of you!

there's school tomorrow.
ARGH, how irritating!
Whatever.
Now i am having a craving for ham.

I LOVE YOU((:
UH HUH, I DO :D

2006-06-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

I miss you!! That's it!
Do you miss me?! i wonder.
Wanted to upload some pictures on blogger.
In the end, my computer screwed up.
I guess i won't be trying again after a long long time.
We will see, we will see.

I miss weiqian and zexin.
They are both not by my side.
I am so used to hearing weiqian's or zexin's voice at least once every two days.
So yeah, where are they?!!
weiqian is still in pulau ubin.
zexin is still stuck in malaysia.
that's the problem with losing your passport in another country.

Anyway, i got raphael a nickname,scarlet lips.
His lips were really really red that day.
That was the funniest part.
The moment i saw him, what first caught my eyes were his lips.
IT'S FRIGGING RED.
Raphael is a pretty boy((:
So far in my whole life.
I've only met 2 pretty boys.
Shall not tell you who the other pretty boy is((:
I agree with weiqian.
Raphael, scarlet lips, ruined his gentleman image a little by calling his friend a 'dickhead'
We seriously didn't expect him to use THAT WORD.

I have an idea what i wanna buy.
Time for shopping!
Yummy!

PRETTY PRETTY BOY<3
Where are you!!??
I MISS YOU!
I MISS YOU!
I MISS YOU!
WHATEVER!

The movie, the village, is the worst horror movie i've ever watched.
A word of advice:
DON'T EVER WATCH IT.

2006-06-21T17:07:00.000+08:00

Oh yes, i'm supposed to have tuition now.
Teacher is late!!
AHHHHHHHHHHH.
It's a good yet bad thing.

I stayed at xinyi's house yesterday night.
It's was quite fun.
We were all doing our own things.
SHE DYED HER HAIR.
I'm damn jealous.
It's damn nice please!
I watched like 4 different movies.
Yeah, damn cool right!?
I slept at around, say, 4.30am?
This morning, I got to wake up at 8.30.
Met friends for breakfast.
I was walking around looking like a half dead zombie.
I better start sleeping early.
Whatever.

I NEED TO GO SHOPPING!!
I NEED TO BUY THINGS.
ALOT ALOT OF THINGS.

Stop making me jealous.
HUH!
I will get what i want!!!!!!!
Stupid girl!

2006-06-20T12:28:00.001+08:00

Pretty pretty boy<3

I guess only weiqian knows.

Well, i am really bored.
Zexin is currently stuck in malaysia because her mom lost all of their passports.
Weiqian left for NCC camp.
THEY ARE GOING TO PULAU UBIN!!!
Argh, whatever.

I shall enjoy myself too.
Tonight i will be going over to XINYI'S house.
Yeah!
MAN, it's gonna be crazy.
It's the 2 of us.
I think we will be renting VCDS to watch.
FOOD FOOD FOOD!
GOSSIPS GOSSIPS GOSSIPS!
I am so gonna miss you!
I MISS YOU<3

This is for MEIFEN.
YOU! YOU! YOU!
Should be honoured.
Meifen is really retarded!
I think she knows why.
I am gonna burst soon!
Never mind!
BUY ME ICE CREAM.
I WANT TO EAT ICE CREAM.
I guess i will just have to go to xinyi's house to dig for it.

I think i am really random.
Oh whatever.
I am all hyper!
STRESS, STRESS, STRESS!!
I AM DYING SOON((:
So people, treat me good!

I miss you<3
Like MAD.
This is for you((:
I Want To Let You Know I'm Proud,
Let You Know That I Admire What You Do
The More If I Need To Reassure You, My Life Would Be Purposeless Without You!

Anyway, when did i become LXH.
CMF stop giving me retarded nicknames.
At least give me some nicer ones like XX, HH or SS.
Alright, i am being really retarded.
What do you expect from CMF'S disciple?

PRETTY PRETTY THINGS<3
PRETTY PRETTY BOY<3

2006-06-20T12:28:00.000+08:00

2006-06-18T19:25:00.000+08:00

I love bleach.
I'm really addicted to it!
It's really nice and interesting.
Ichigo is damn cool!

Happy birthday lionel!
Happy birthday lide!
Happy birthday group leader!
I didn't go for lionel's birthday party.
For some reason, i didn't feel like going.
I had tuition that night too.
Sorry lionel lim ying hao.

I need to study!
I really need to study!
Exams are coming!!!!

Anyway, i went church today!
Taihui laoshi is pregnant!
She's already 4 months pregnant!
I'm happy for her!

Enough, i shall go watch bleach!
Bye bye((:

I LOVE BABY!((:

2006-06-11T16:28:00.000+08:00

I am HAPPY((:
Very very HAPPY!
Mummy is gonna get me SCV!
I am gonna have world cup channel!
YUMMY!
It's interesting!
Very interesting!

DON'T ACT LIKE YOU LIKE US.
SHOW IT IF YOU DON'T.
WHY BOTHER TO BE FRIENDS WITH US.
WHY BOTHER TO PUT UP A SHOW.
IT'S JUST A WASTE OF TIME.
AFTERALL, IT JUST REFLECTS ON WHAT KIND OF PERSON YOU ARE.
LIKE I EVEN BOTHER.
YOU ARE A TOTAL WASTE OF MY TIME.
Anyway, the way my friends take pictures isn't any of your business.
They are sexy and hot but you are not.
It's your loss not theirs.
You are simply jealous of them.
Whatever.

2006-06-10T11:43:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE((:

I had a lovely lovely time this whole week.
Thursday was great<3
I enjoyed every single moment.
You know it, you know it.
I bet you people are jealous.
So beautiful, so beautiful.
What more do i need!!
Nothing, nothing, nothing.
I'm simply contented and happy((:

YOU better stop bullying me.
One day i will get my revenge!
You beware, you beware!
I will EAT you up.
Tasty, tasty, tasty!!!!
Oh, i simply can't wait.
YUM YUM.
((((:

Anyway, world cup's cool.
Watch it people, watch it!!

2006-06-08T20:46:00.000+08:00

'Cause you're my only one, only one, only one.

Oh gosh, all these songs are just so lovely.

As long as you're happy, i am too((:
I didn't mean it.
I really didn't.
Forget it.
Baby, that's all you need to know<3
That's all.

PRETTY, PRETTY, PRETTY, PRETTY<3

2006-06-06T09:22:00.000+08:00

Every time I look at you, baby, I see something new
That takes me higher than before and makes me want you more
I don't wanna sleep tonight, dreamin's just a waste of time
When I look at what my life's been comin' to
I'm all about loving you((:

I am irritated!
I need my ez-link back.
It's been over a week!
Why can't she be more responsible to call me and return it to me.
So far i've spend like over $20 on transport.
If she doesn't give me my ez-link back, i'm gonna make sure she compensates me.
I am serious.
Don't try me.

2006-06-04T16:22:00.000+08:00

Weiqian is feeling rather down today!
I KNOW WHY, I KNOW WHY!
COME AND ASK ME.

I am sick.
I was running a high fever last night.
Tossing and turning in bed.
It wasn't nice!

I'm so glad!
I AM HAPPY TODAY!
YOU KNOW WHY((:

I MISS CELINE<3
I LOVE HER!
I didn't send her off yesterday.
That was the saddest part!

2006-05-30T12:37:00.000+08:00

I love you and i don't want you to suffer(:
Bear with it for a while more.
I'll always be there with you!
We will suffer together alright.
Prove it to the rest.
You can do it!
I can do it!
I believe in YOU<3

Isto é para você, bebê!
A minha bela caixa musical.
A canção de ninar doce que me balança para dormir cada noite!
Por isso sempre parto para a região dos sonhos com um sorriso(:
Você é todo de que preciso!
AMO-O, PRECIOSO!<3

o na la o na la a ju o na
ka da la ka da la a ju ga na
na na ni da lyeo do mok no na ni
a ni li a ni li a ni no ne
he I ya di i ya he I ya na la ni no
o ni do mok ha na da lyeo ga ma
o na la o na la a ju o na
ka da la ka da la a ju ga na
na na ni da lyeo do mok no na ni
a ni li a ni li a ni no ne
o na la o na la a ju o na
ka da la ka da la a ju ga na
na na ni da lyeo do mok no na ni
a ni li a ni li a ni no ne
he I ya di I ya he I ya na la ni no
o ji do mok ha na da lyeo ga ma
he I ya di I ya he I ya na la ni no
o ji do mok ha na da lyeo ga ma

2006-05-24T15:50:00.000+08:00

I'm disappointed.
I'm not the only one.
You will have to answer to God.
I really didn't expect you to do that.
It's really quite heart breaking.
Why did you do it to yourself?
Do you know we, as girls, are always at the losing end!
I care for you, i really do.
YOU should care for yourself too.
But now, i guess everything is pointless.

2006-05-23T10:34:00.000+08:00

I had a damn cool dream last night!
It was about YOU again!
Are you jealous!?
The dream was kidda cool!

Exams are coming.
Chinese O's is like barely 6 days away.
Oh my gosh!

Studying studying!
There's really nothing much to blog about.

Here a song for my sexy, hot, adorable MR BFL!

And I'm in so totally wrapped up
Emotionally attracted
So physically acting
So recklessly I need you
So desperately sure as the sky is blue
Baby I love you
I love you

I never knew that I could feel like this
Can hardly wait till our next kiss
Your so cool
If I'm dreaming please don't wake me up
'Cause baby I can't get enough of what you do

And I'm in
So electrically charged up
Kinetically acting
Erractically need you
Fanatically you get to me
Magically sure as the sky is blue
Baby I love you

I can't believe
That this is real
The way I feel
Baby I gone head over heels

Yes yes, indeed so.

2006-05-21T17:21:00.000+08:00

I can't help but feel that you're irritated with me again.

Sing to me the song of the star.

2006-05-20T11:47:00.000+08:00

It wasn't that fun after all.
To be exact, i didn't feel comfortable.
We have different interest, taste, attitude...
To make things more simple, we are TOTALLY different.
Maybe she's more similar to them.
Who knows and who cares!
After all it's her choice to choose what kind of people she wanna hang out with.
Once is enough for me.
NO THANK YOU.
They are not horrible people but they are not nice either.
It's best just to be friends.
Not close friends, best friends or whatever.
Just friends.

So far, i would rather hang out with people whom i'm comfortable with.
No way am i gonna land myself in such an awkward situation.
NO WAY.
Anyway, LYING IS BAD
I might as well stop lying.
At least i lie for a reason.
Lying for no reason is stupid.
Lying for the sake of lying is worse.
After all, it all ended up with people losing their trust for you.
It's always our choice.

It's always me and me again.
Tralalalala.
Understanding, that's what you are.
I don't know what i'll do without you((:
Mine and mine always(:

2006-05-15T13:48:00.000+08:00

You can take my breath away(:

Be free to love!

All I need is someone who makes me wanna sing(:

Let's turn the wheel around and DANCE.

Sing to me the song of the stars.

I'm holding a fortune that heaven has given to me.

Now and forever, you can be my man((:

2006-05-13T13:57:00.000+08:00

Someone beautiful.

I just don't know how to express myself.
Maybe to you.

I don't say it but it doesn't mean that i don't feel it.
When i say it, i mean it.

It was a stupid mistake of mine.
I'm really sorry.
I'm glad that i met someone so understanding(:

I LOVE YOU<3
REALLY, I DO(:

2006-05-11T18:53:00.000+08:00

Where did you go when i need you so?

Gone with the wind.